So the last post was October 19th. Today is November 8th. In that time lapse, I have done zippety do-dah with regard to weight loss, but I haven't gained any weight either. Just sort of maintaining the status quo. Much like politics in Washington DC this week (and yes, I'm pleased about Obama being re-elected, but he'd better get in there and do a better job this time around). I've decided to stop labeling posts with Day Blah-Blah because I've lost track of how long its been, and I can't count that high without using my fingers.
Life as I know it has just sort of taken over. My step-son was with us for nearly 3 straight weeks when his mom had a bout of an unexpected illness (she has since recovered and fortunately it was never life-threatening, just bad enough that she really couldn't have the boy at home with her; that wouldn't have been good for either of them). So, more care-taking stuff to do at the homestead during that time. In less than 2 weeks, I'm heading home to New Jersey to spend 16 days with my family and to enjoy the first family Thanksgiving I've had since 2005 (that will be really cool).
I am still trying to do the "one healthy thing a day" bit, although I'm not sure I'm always successful at it. Sometimes the healthy thing seems really minute, like today I chose to eat an apple instead of something less healthy. However, today I DID finally get around to making an appointment to get my hair cut and colored next week (so long overdue, last time it was JULY!) and then I made a dentist appointment for tomorrow because I'm pretty sure I have a big ol' cavity and it's getting uncomfortable. I don't want to go back to NJ on my vacation and end up having to see a local dentist, since I don't have health-care coverage there anymore. Hopefully they can patch me up and I'll be ok until I get back; if I need more extensive dental work, it will have to wait until December, but at least I can get this one thing handled and off my "list".
I'm clearly in some sort of funk, though, when it comes to take care of the bigger projects in my life. I'm not depressed (I've had depression and I know what that feels like, and this isn't it) but it's more like I feel just plain unmotivated. And this doesn't only extend to my commitment to my health, but to housecleaning and writing as well. "I ought to be doing things" seems to be my catch-phrase.
I'll get past it eventually. I always do.
Don't stress about it. When you are ready, you will start. Some of us have to go through a lot of crap (mentally) to get there. You're just working it out in your head. You are going to wake up one morning soon and say to yourself, "Today's the day!"
ReplyDeleteP.S. You're not alone on the motivation to clean the house!
That's me above. Forgot to sign.
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